Goodbye

Here’s the poem I performed tonight. Special thanks to my close friends Braden and Amanda for showing their support, I never would had the courage to speak my soul without them:

When I’m with you, I fly.  There’s nothing quite like the sky, filling one’s eyes to make you forget how far the ground is, but it’s there, it’s there waiting to be the only thing to catch me when you’re gone.

I lose myself, I lose my identity it seems, in an ocean of dreams, when all I’ve known is a life of streams.. and puddles.

It hurts.  It hurts, to be shackled to Mr. Hyde when Dr Jekyll is all I want to be.

When we’re together, I’m an addict, counting the sobriety tokens I’ve earned since the sharpest and most broken parts of me were pressed firm against the most vulnerable parts of each of us.

My moment of clarity is a nightmare, flashes of moments I was scared, causing my hair to stand on end and tear at everything I was once so sure of.

We may be tough as nails–but over the years, the salt in my tears has left my skin brown with rust and when I reach out to touch you all I have to give…

is tetanus…

So I wait, I sit and I wait, alone  and I wait, praying and hoping that time will soon have mercy enough to CLR my heart and all that I am can be shiny and new once more.

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